Lovin'.. is what i got=)

Toooomorrow! Tomorrow! I'll love ya MORE tomorrow =]

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 18:57:34 GMT

soooo i get to see my baby tomorrow!! i cant wait. ahhhh it's been way to long. i love that he's not giving up though, that means so much to me. we both know that after all the waiting, and the frustration, and me crying every night.. that it's all gonna be worth it =] he's amazing. this weekend is gonna be the best.. i'm gonna see him tomorrow night, then saturday morning he's going with me to get my hair done, then we're going back to his house and going to a church thing with his family, then going back to his house for some "fun" haha... i'm excited! then sunday is his birrttthhhhdayyy!!! ahh.. that boy is getting OLD! [ 19 ] woo baby.

hrmm.. everything in Dothan is alright.. i'm getting things done. My dad and Jill are getting married, probably in the next couple weeks.. We put in our 30 day notice at the apt. complex.. so yeah, i guess we're moving in with them in 29 days! I'm sure it'll be fun..we wont be there too long, maybe a few more months.. by next year our big beautiful house will be built=] funnnn.. AND i get to sleep with Evie every night.. she's so precious!

well i hope everyone is doing okay?

xoxo
Farrah ♥

Bleh...

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 04:57:18 GMT

So i havent updated in awhile..
things are alright i guess.. Me and Michael are still doing good, although i hardly ever get to see him.. and some people make him look bad.. but its okay because i got it straightened out and my dad likes him again =) I'm going to see him tomorrow or Sunday.. i really can wait, that boy is my world.

I miss my mom so much it hurts.. I'm gonna go see her in March for my spring break if i dont have to work. I cant wait to see her and the rest of the family.. and my bff Elisha Dawn! haa.. and my Trucker of course!

School for me starts the second week of Febuary.. i'm actually excited. Then that weekend i get to go back to bham to see Michael for his birthday=)) ahhh i love him.

okay, well thats it.
xoxo
Farrah ♥

tell me we'll be alright....

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:36:38 GMT

Its just day to day tryin' to make ends meet.
What id give for an address on easy street.
I need a deep margarita to help me unwind
Leave my troubles behind...

But if you can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave,
You just might make me believe <33

so0o in love ♥

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 16:01:08 GMT

ahh well......
what can i say?!
Everything is AMAZING! I went to WV for Christmas. Man, it was a blast! Me and Elisha back to our old selves.. i love it. Christmas night standing outside of the 711 with Kong masks on ( which we only payed $6 for!) Saying "Grr, Merry Christmas" hahaha that girl is FUNNY! *dead fish flopping* *walking sloths* *PACK A BOWL! we're ourselves* LMAO. and i got to see my TRUUUCCKKEEER, Cerik, Alex, Parker, & Kaitlynator. love them! The Kids and the rest of the Fam were outstandingly fabulous.. i missed everyone soo much! *I hope everyone had a VERY Merry Christmas btw.* Okay, then i got back to The Ham.. and went out on Dallys bday which was fun 'til the end of the night when we dropped Michael off.. bleh.. he was so stupid that night. So we were home late and got in trouble, and i had to go back to my house and i couldnt stay at Dallys.. and Michael and Cory dont get along anymore so i didnt see much of Dallas. ='( Sorry, i'll be back soon. Michael did come and get me everyday after that though!! I Love that boy so much, it's unreal. So now, i'm back in Dothan, i got here yesterday.. but i should be back in bham soon.. me and michael are going to be living together ♥ ahhh.. i can't wait, there's nothing i want more than to be with that boy all the time. Have a good day everyone. ♥

When it's for real, it's forever.... so dont forget about us. =]

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 07:01:58 GMT

2 days! then i'll be in Birmingham =] woop woop! we're gonna get CRAZY! i can feel it. i really cant wait, i miss everyone way too much. things here are still okay though. all my furniture for my room is gonna be here tomorrow, i'm sooo excited! i dont really have much to write so i'll leave you with some very cute pictures!
xoxo
Farrah &hearts;
"Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms.
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it,
So don't forget about us.

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us"

Olivia.

EmmiLou.

Chandler.

Evie

oh my, i adore all of those kids...

mmm fun =)

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 06:18:39 GMT

i just love all these crazy quizzes when i'm bored!

Humm... =]

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 22:32:00 GMT

ahh ♥ Well, things are going pretty good now! I still miss Michael like big time!! but i'll see him soon =] He's feeling alot better now, so i dont have to worry, and he's going back to work tomorrow, so hopefully he'll be getting his car fixed soon! yayyy! Dallas isnt mad. She was just upset, i was too of course, 'cause this year was going to be alot of fun.. but there's always next year!!! We always have a good time anyway. NEW YEARS SHOULD BE KICK ASSSSS! Ugh.. i miss her terribly.. and my brothers too!!

I baby sat Trent and Alex last night.. they are so stinkin' cute! Alex held my hand until he fell asleep :o) awwwww. And Trent is just always fun to be around. i love them boys.

Evie and Jill are coming over for dinner tonight.. never a dull moment with them. The three of us went to the mall the other day.. ahhh so much fun!! Evie is a doll.

Okay well, not too much else is going on. Sooo everyone have a fabulous night.

xoxo
Farrah ♥

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 07:22:13 GMT

Ugh. =[
I miss Michael so much.
Being away from him is killing me.. and he is sick, so i'm worrying about him all the time because there's nothing i can do to help him, i think he's going to the hospital tomorrow. ='[ My heart hurts...

Took my hand
Touched my heart
Held me close
You were always there

By my side
Night and day
Through it all
baby come what may

Swept away on a wave of emotion
Overcaught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine

This love
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable

Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here

Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong

I've been touched by the hands of an angel
I've been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine

This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why

This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this is over
Our love still remains

This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
Cause each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why

This love is unbreakable ♥ ♥ ♥

get crazy with the cheese wiz. i'm a loser baby.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 03:12:03 GMT

mmmmmmmm.
Today was a good day.
My dad, Jill, Evie, and I went out to eat, then went to Wal*Mart, so we had alot of fun =) Then my dad and I went over to Uncle Roys so he could get some stuff, and i could see the boys 'cause i missed them so much! I get to baby-sit them Saturday night!!!!! Having fun & making $60-$70.. can't beat that!

Humm.. My baby is sick ='( I hope you feel better hunny. I love you.

Dallas may be mad at me because i'm not going to the Christmas party this year, but oh well.. This is the only chance i have to watch Chandler wrestle at this age.. i'm not gonna miss it.. especially when we have Christmas parties every year. Atleast i'll be here in time for her birthday.. but the way she acted that doesnt matter now either. ?

Okay well.. everyone have a good night! I'm out.

xoxo
Farrah ♥

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 05:51:32 GMT

mmmm... that boy is my everything =)

Who has the coolest best friend in the world? uhh yeah.. that'd be ME!

Uh oh... me and my brother! i love that kid....

but she gotta have booty too.....

they are perfect together.... best friends forever!

Awe.. we're in love.. muh...

........i'm the lucky one.

Very Bored. So learn stuff about me! :o)

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 01:02:08 GMT

01. Name: Farrah Nicole Garzarek

02. Birth date: January 12, 1989

03. Birthplace: Fairmont, West Virginia

04. Current Location: Dothan, Alabama

05. Eye Color: Blue
06. Hair Color: Blonde
07. Height: 5'1

08. Righty or Lefty: Righty

09. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
10. Marital Status: In a Relationship
11. Nicknames: Jauca, Farrah Jane, Farrah Diddle, BILLY!
12. Siblings: 2 sisters, 1 brother

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STUFF THAT ISN'T REALLY IMPORTANT BUT IS ASKED ANYWAYS

13. What did you do yesterday?: Checked out a school, went to see my office, bought a t.v. and talked to my baby =)
14. What are you doing tomorrow? working, going shopping, and whatever else i decide to do.
15. What are you listening to?: Modest Mouse
16. What country would you most like to visit?: POLAND!
19. What are you most afraid of?: bad drivers.

20. What are you wearing?: jeans and a sweater

21. What are you thinking about right now?: Michael, and how much i love him =)

22. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: pink

23. One pillow or two, cotton or feather?: two - cotton.

24. How do you eat a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup: like i would eat anything else..

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ARE YOU...

25. Single?: Nope :o) i love you Michael.

27. Understanding?: I try to be

28. Arrogant?: Nope. Confident ha.

30. Interesting?: you tell me.

31. Friendly?: most definately

32. Smart?: If you dont count the "Farrah moments" Yess!

33. Moody?: arent we all ?

34. Childish?: sometimes, but in a funny way.

35. Independent?: for sure!

36. Emotionally Stable?: I tell myself i am, but i dont think so.

37. shy? pshhh! no way.

38. Attractive?: Are you kidding? i am dead sexy.

39. Bored Easily?: yeah

40. Responsible?: sometimes. i try to be.

41. Sad?: kinda.. i miss dally, michael, cory, and justin.

42. Obsessive?: nah

43. Obsessive compulsive? Ha, no.

44. Psycho?: nope

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WHAT'S...

45. Your heritage?: polish baby!

46. Your weakness?: Michael

47. Your fears?: Lady bugs, mexicans, and bad drivers.

48. Your perfect pizza?: i dunno.. i dont really think about pizza alot.

50. Your current Mood? wore out!

51. Your current Music?: Modest Mouse!

52. Your current Taste?: Dr.pepper

53. Your current Hair?: half way up, curled under

54. Your current Smell: moonlit rose :o)

55. Your current Favorite Celebrity: umm....

56. Your most overused phrase on AIM/YAHOO/MSN?: goober

57. Your thoughts first waking up?: i need sleep.

58. Your best physical feature?: eyes

59. Your bedtime?: whenever i get sleepy

60. Your most missed memory?: My bham crew already!

61. Your good luck charm?: the bracelet michael got me out of the bubble gum machine! lol

62. Your favorite quote?: ahh man, too many to choose from.

63. The worst song you ever heard: ever? anything sung my ryan cabrera

64. The last thing you ate?: Chinese food

65. The last thing you said?: i love you too!

66. The best song you ever heard?: woah.. thats a toughy.

67. The shoes you wore today?: my love flops!

68. The most embarrassing thing you've done?: Ehh..I don't really get embarrassed easily.

69. Your room is like?: my room is like.. a mess!

70. Goal you'd like to achieve?: humm.. saving up enough money, so me, michael, dally and cory can live together.

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HAVE YOU EVER

71. Fallen for your best friend?: Yeah

72. Made out with JUST a friend?: Yupp

73. Been rejected?: lol, it happens to the best of us.

74. Been in love?: Michael Gregory Cain is my world <3

75. Been in lust?: yeah

76. Used someone?: not intentionally

77. Been used?: Yes

78. Cheated on someone?: No

79. Been cheated on?: Yeah....

80. Done something you regret?: ugh yess..

81. Loved someone so much it made you cry?: yeah =)

82. Smoked?: uh huh

83. Broken the law?: heh.. yes

84. Broken a bone?: yeah

85. Cheated on a test?: oh yeah

86. Skinny dipped?: Yess!!!

87. Played truth or dare?: Haha..you are a loser if you havent! "Hello, welcome to my home."

88. Flashed someone?: yeah. jeesh!

89. Mooned someone?: just dallas.

90. Kissed someone you didn't know?: kinda

91. Been in a physical fight?: yupp. dont mess with me.

92. Ridden in a police car?: yeah

93. Been on a plane?: ugh i practically lived on them for awhile.

94. Come close to dying?: yeah

95. Been in a sauna?: yeah

96. Been in a hot tub?: Yeah

97. Swam in the ocean?: Yeah, but It scares me

98. Done illegal drugs?: i'm high on life!

99. Played a game that required removal of clothing?: BLUE REFELECTOR BITCHES! "Why arent they getting naked?"

100. If so, was it mixed company(guys and girls)?: yeah

101. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated?: oh yeah

102. Been called a tease?: yes.

103. Gotten beaten up?: no.

104. Considered a life of crime?: no

105. Considered being a hooker?: dont think so.

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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON

106. You talked to in person?: My dad

107. You talked to on the phone? Michael

108. You instant messaged?: Greg

109. You had lunch with?: my dad

110. You kissed?: Michael

111. Who broke your heart?: Adam. But Michael definately did a good job of putting it back together.

112. Who kissed you?: Michael

113. You had physical contact with?: I hugged Dallas =)

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DO YOU

114. Color your hair?: yeah

115. Have tattoos?: one

116. Have Piercings?: no.

117. Floss daily? no

118. Own a web cam?: nope

119. Ever get off the computer?: not really, haha.

120. Like Parks?: mmhmm! me and Dally are REALLY good swingers.

121. Like school?: i like school, i dont like school work.

122. Collect anything?: Umm, not really.

123. Work?: yes

124. Like shopping?: uh huh!

125. Party?: yess suh!

126. Smoke?: you caught me

127. Sing?: All the time!

128. Have a crush?: My long-term crush FINALLY belongs to me! yay!

129. Think you've been in love? Yes

130. Want to go to college?: Yeah

131. Like(d) high school?: umm didn't you already ask that?

132. Want to get married?: Of course.

133. Believe in yourself?: Sometimes..

134. Get motion sickness?: Nope

135. Think you're attractive? Sometimes

136. Think you're a health freak?: No

137. Get along with your parent(s)?: most of the time

138. Like thunderstorms?: no they scare me

139. Play an instrument?: not anymore

140. Do you have a lava lamp?: hahahahahahahahaha! yeah. what a weirdo this survey is.

141. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: Nope

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PREFERENCES.....

142. Pepsi or Coke: pepsi

143. McDonald's or Burger King?: mcdonalds

144. Single or group dates: both are cool

145. Adidas or Nike: Nike

146. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i dont really like either one

147. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

148. Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

149. Chicken or fish: Chicken!!!!!!!!

150. Thongs or Panties: Huh? (lol Dallas.) who wears them things anymore?

151. Boxers or Briefs: Boxers

152. Candy or mints: Both!

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IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU

153. Drank alcohol?: yes.

154. Smoked?: yeah

155. Done a drug?: mmHmm

156.what? no comment

157. what? what, what?

158. Gone on a date?: yeah

159. Gone to the mall?: yeah

160. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: Um, no

161. Eaten sushi? eww no way

162. Been on stage?: no

163. Been dumped?: no

164. Gone skating ?: no

165. Made homemade cookies?: i dont bake. well for that matter, i dont use a stove AT ALL.

166. Gone skinny dipping?: yes

167. Dyed your hair?: yeah

168. Stolen anything? Michael heart =) haha

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IN A GUY/GIRL

169. Best eye color: blue.

170. Best hair color: guys with hair are stupid. lololololol.

171. Short or long hair: bite me

172. Height: taller than me. thats not saying much.

173. Best weight: i dunno, however much michael weighs works for me.

174. Best articles of clothing?: birthday suits for sure.

175. Best first date location: anywhere as long as u can carry a good conversation

176. Best first kiss location: Trussville movies, in the parking lot, leaning into a car. =)

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DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

177. Aliens?: no

178. Angels?: Yeah

179. God?: Yes

181. Yourself?: Didn't you already ask this one also?

182. Ghosts?: eee! yeah.

183. Love?: Definately.

184. Love at first sight: YEAH!

185. The tooth fairy? lol.. no.

186. Santa Claus?: No

187. Cupid?: no

188. The Easter Bunny?: no

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YOUR FUTURE

189. Where do you want to go to college?: BAMA! roll tide baby :o)

191. What do you want to be when you grow up?: hmm a lawyer or a journalist.. havent decided yet.

192. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: Michael Cain, Dallas Bratton, and Cory Phipps. and mine and dallys cats of course.

193. Where do you want to get married?: i'm not sure yet.

194. Do you want to have a small or big wedding?: small.

195. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: Mmm.. far away from here, somewhere beautiful.. with really big beds.

196. Do you want to have children?: i used to not. but now i do.

197. How many children do you want to have?: 2 or 3

198. What do you want to name them?: i dunno yet, i have ALOT of time to decide.

199. Where do you want to live?: Alabama totally works for me.

200. How do you want to die?: Peacefully

201. Was this survey worth your time? No, but i guess it gave me something to do. Thanks.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 20:19:23 GMT

There are millions of people out there. But in the end it all comes down to one. I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe. But I know there's something beautiful in all my imperfections. A beauty in which he held out for me to see, a strength that can never be taken away.

I wanna grow old with you =)

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 06:16:00 GMT

Oh my! I havent been online in soo long, so yeah i havent been able to update. Things are going really good! Me and Michael are still together and absolutely perfect! ♥ Well except for the fact that i'm moving to Dothan for awhile to get some stuff done, but i'll still go to Birmingham as much as i possibly can, i should get there almost every weekend.. soo we're just gonna have to work hard to keep a strong relationship, i think we can do it.. no.. i KNOW we can. I love him so much. AANNNDD! i love Dally & Cory.. they are my best friends and i miss them awhole lot already. Christmas is very soon! I cant wait to see my mom and the kids!! Oh and i hope everyones Thanksgiving was splendid =) I know mine was ♥ Okay well... have a good night!

xoxo
Farrah ♥

"Every little thing that you do,
i'm so in love with you.
It just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
with you by my side, forever and ever.
Ohh every little thing that you do,
baby i'm amazed by you."

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 06:40:40 GMT

Heyyy // ♥

things are still going great. Chandlers birthday was about a week ago, he's 5!!! I cant believe it! Ummm, halloween sucked.. it was sooo boring, we planned it out great but it didnt go as planned. It's okay though we make up for it with all of our other funfilled nights!! "Party every night, like it's a holiday or something." Definately my motto! lol. Michael is so precious, he treats me really good. Usually if the guy is overly nice to me i dont like it (weird i know!) but this time its beginning to seem okay. My mind still shifts over to Adam occasionally, but i always get passed it.=) My dad just bought a place in Dothan, he wants me to move in with him... heh... We'll see what happens. Life here is better than ever.

Eric! i miss you too much.
We're doing something soon!

xoxo
Farrah ♥

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 04:18:45 GMT

I love Michael Gregory Cain
with everything i have ♥ ♥

i like this boy!!!<3333

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 18:55:31 GMT

Welp things are going great!
Me and Michael are doing sooo good!
I talked to Adam last night and he basicly told me i'm a piece of shit and he doesnt love me anymore, and i almost got sad, then i was like wait a minute! This is stupid, i have Michael and he's gonna treat me so much better! So everything went okay. Awwwwww he did the cutest thing this morning, he called and woke me up at like 7:30 right before he went to work and was like "Hey i just wanted to call you and tell you to have a good day and know that i'll be thinking about you." I was like omgosh!!! it made me so happy, he's great ♥ Umm, what else? AHH! i think my mommy is gonna try to move down here with me, i'm really excited.. if she does that things would be absolutely perfect!!!! Me and Dallas made some REAL cool lollipops!!!! boooooo. They're ghosts and punkins! yeah yuh! okay i'm done, have a good day!!!

xoxo
Farrah ♥

awwww!!!!!E3jrueirfhewuhfeuw

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 02:03:38 GMT

Guess what!
I FINALLY have a boyrfriend thats not Adam! lol.. yeah it's nice i think, i mean obviously i still have "feelings" for Adam because i always will, he never did anything wrong.. BUT i have wanted this other guy ever since i moved here the very first time! YESS PEOPLE! Michael Cain... ahhh that boy.. he's amazing ♥

Mission Accomplished.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 23:43:31 GMT

i now live a drama-free life :o)
Yess.. it feels wonderful, and i feel happy.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 07:39:21 GMT

Look i know we probably wont talk anymore, but i do know that you read this, and i know YOU know who you are. I dont know what happened or why you said the things you said, or why you lied about having a girlfriend, which you did do so please dont say you didnt. I know you may have done it to help me, but i told you from the beginning that i didnt like people fucking with my head, and whether you realize it or not that's exactly what you did. I wouldnt have liked you if you didnt give me a reason to.. with comments like "You're going to fall in love with me" or "I want you" Could you please tell me what you wanted me to get out of all that? I dont understand it, being friends with you was perfectly fine, but the truth is you didnt wanna leave it at that, did you? And if you did you had an odd way of going about it. Oh, and fyi people have walked in and messed things up my whole life, even before i could control it, so by the time i could it all just seemed normal to me.. you dont know what i've been through, so dont act like you do. I appreciate you trying to help, but honestly you cant, nobody can. I'll get through it on my own, i dont like depending on someone else to help me through anything. What the hell has gotten into you, i dont understand you in the least bit. I'll be here though, you told me alot that night, and if you need to talk again, you got the s/n and the phone number, dont hesitate to call or whatnot. I told you alot of shit as well, and i would appreciate it if you would just keep it to yourself. Goodluck with the getting married thing, I hope everything turns out beautifully, you need it. Comment if you'd like, you dont have to show who you are. // ♥ // Goodluck with EVERYTHING.

My God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles. :o)

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 05:27:17 GMT

So Dallas took me to see Greg today (thank you Dallas) You have no idea how much better i feel! I think we're going to a movie this weekend. He really is something else. ♥ Uhh, Dallas and Cory are such an adorable couple!!! i sooo want what they have! *Jealousy* I'll find it soon, i'm sure. I'm listening to some Aqua right now, i missed it.. they're actually still good. lol. Me and Mr.Eric need to do something very soon, because i said sooo! HEAR THAT BITCH! I LOVE YOU ALOT TOOOO.. YEAH! I'm going down to Dothan next week.. gonna see my good ole buddy Bologna. Cant freaking wait! Hey Kristen, we should probably hang out. And Ashley, uhh definately hang out! i miss you alot. JEREMY! HANG OUT SOMETIME VEEERRRYYYY SOOOOOOON! I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE! Time for some bowling brotha! Okay i dont really have much to write about as you can tell, so i'm just gonna go.

xoxo
Farrah ♥

I need you, i need you like a drug.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 22:56:00 GMT

hEy.
Uhh, things are weird right now. But okay i guess.
Friday me, Dally, Cory, & Justin went to see that Emily Rose movie.. it wasnt that scary, just weird. Then we just hung out at Justins for awhile and went to the movies again and talked to Bj and Tez, and almost hurt this one girl real bad cause she runs her mouth :o) Umm last night i didnt do ANYTHING! i was stuck at home all night because the family now wants to choose who i hang out with which is pretty much no one except Dallas and Drew, which is fine i guess because they are both wonderful, but i dont really see Drew all that much =/ I just really need new friends. Uncle Rock and his boys stayed last night, those kinds are soooo smart, i couldnt believe it! Today my dad decided to take my phone calls for me, and told Adam he didnt need to call anymore which REALLY pissed me off like bad! I was handleing it fine on my own, he coulda asked me first. So i'm not really talking to him right now. Umm what else... i was supposed to go see Greg today at work but that didnt happen because it's my grandmothers birthday so we all went out to eat. I dunno, i'm really upset right now, like i just feel like cry a whole bunch, and i feel like i'm about to make a bunch of bad decisions... yes, if i know i'm going to make them then why dont i stop myself? I'm just not really sure i want to....

Beth Hart is my idol. She wrote this song about me ha.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 02:42:03 GMT

She got a poet's spirit
she bums among the clouds
she never stops believing
she only dreams out loud
there's a jackpot in the dresser
she's fallen in the bath
& if you need to kiss her
don't forget your stash
'cause she gives it away
& you're fascinated by her
& she does it again
with simple & brilliant desire
& she gives it away
& you're fascinated by ...by her
- she wears a million colors
there's rainbows on her soles
she got a sign above her
that says I'm never growin' old
you're askin' her to dance
now she spins a solid white light
she's gonna make love to you today
today & every night
& she gives it away
& you're fascinated by her
then she does it again
with simple & brilliant desire
& she gives it away
& you're fascinated by...
by her, by her
she may be waiting
'round the corner of your mind
but still you know
she's there you can feel her inside
so don't forget about the reasons
that brought you her
'cause she's a miracle..

i looove that song. it's called "By her" listen to it!

i would also like to say how happy i am for Dallas!
i love you!

aaand i have a mad crush from Canada, and i wont give up 'til he is mine, thats right i refuse. You know=)

Dont lie to me, the worst thing you could ever do is lie to me.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 19:42:41 GMT

Ahh, things are still going pretty good. Adam came over last night, not as bad as i thought it would be, i got alot of stuff out of the way, and made it clear to him that i did NOT want to get back together. Of course the #1 question everytime something like that happens, "Well are you wanting to get with someone else?" I answered truthfully.. I am interested in someone else, but thats definately not the reason for not wanting to be with him. I'm not even sure about this other guy, I mean yeah, he is the type of guy that normally i would go crazy for, which is kind of what i'm doing right now lol, but i really dont know if anything will happen. If it doesnt i wont let myself get all bummed out over it. Well... either way, i just really need a good guy in my life, i'm tired of the little 'flings' and then guys i really like treating me like shit. I cant really say i'm not in a hurry, because i wish i could find him like now.. but i know these things take time and i'll be as patient as i can be.. Nothing good ever comes from rushing into things. Okay, onto another subject, my dad is treating me like i'm 5 again.. I HATE THAT! I know he hasnt been around long and the last thing he remembers of me is being 5 but damnit i've been here for like 2 years with him and he really needs to understand that i am growing up. Ahh i dont know how to make it stop. My mom called me today, she said my brother wanted to call because he was upset.. It breaks my heart when the kids cry to me when something bad happens, i wish i could be there to hug 'em and kiss 'em and tell them they'll be alright, not being able to do that has to be one of the worst feelings in the world. I feel like i've abandoned everyone there, my mom, my siblings, everyone. They always tell me that i've been through too much, and to just go where i can be happy. Dont get me wrong, being in Alabama makes me very happy, it's sort of an escape for me, but i just cant help feeling bad when i think about everything i'm leaving everytime i come here... life is just too complicated sometimes. Okay, i need to quit rambling, if you read all this you're my new favorite.

xoxo
Farrah ♥

"I am both happy, and sad. I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

SWEEEEEET HOME ALABAMAAAA!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 06:23:50 GMT

Guess what!
I'm at my very best friends house right now!
Yess.. i love Dallas a whole lot.

and.. Drew came to see me today, that boy makes me smile real big, i kinda like it. =)

and... Cory is hanging out with us tomorrow, i love that kid with some of my heart.

ha, life is fantastic.

xoxo
Farrah ♥

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 05:15:10 GMT

Me: oh i'm having so much fun. "Well barbie, we're just getting started." Oh i love you Ken.
greg: haha
greg: i cant wait to b ur ken
Me: awe well i cant wait to be your barbie!
greg: neither can i

Wow.. that boy is definately something special. =)
I cant wait to see him. ♥

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